Sunday, January 25, 2009

GaGaK is CroW


For those who know me... and those who see the bground pics.. it's obvious that my favorite animal is GaGaK (Crow in english). So in this section (ceh).. I like to share some interesting facts about GaGaK that I'm sure most of you don't know which makes GaGaK the coolest bird for me!!

Most of us only look at GaGaK as ugly? disgusting? noisy?

Well, here are some cool points about GaGaK sure to touch your hearts and change ur perceptions~ haha...

--> GaGaK is the most intelligent bird on earth!! Probably on the same level as monkey and dolphine... which is a statement in a documentary~ Dun believe? Watch how this clever little guy uses it's brain (or instinc?)

many people say GaGaK are disgusting cos they eat rubbish, well... they are not disgusting, they are survivors!! And they can eat non-rubbish if they want too... but they are smart and they are a survivor, so they search for foods in rubbish while other "non-disgusting" bird starve to death... :)

--> GaGaK can talk!! So you think only parrots can talk eh?? I think GaGaK spoke even better then parrots~ this is just one example.. you can find a lot more in YouTube~

yaa... at first I dun believe it either... but u can search other vids, GaGaK really can talk!

--> GaGaK is noisy? nuisance? watch this and see the affections of a GaGaK... this is a MUST SEE video... guarantee to touch any nature-loving-curious hearts...

How's that for a GaGaK?? Go GaGaK!!

These are just some of the "facts" why I love GaGaK... There are also metaphorical reason why I love GaGaK which will be discuss some other time perhaps...

"GaGaK is a beautiful and unique bird, part of the wonderful nature that Allah has created"

So respect these beautiful birds, they are natures clean-up crew, and protector of other species (at least the kitten in the video..:P)

All right.. that's all about GaGaK for today~

My dream no.5: gotta relate it to GaGaK.. huhu.

"I dream that... erm... GaGaK can live peacefully with human.... err... :P"

Possibilities: Err... ahh, who cares??

  • No updates on MARA contract... still unfinished
  • David Boothey from UNSW called me... when I was still half-awake... enquiring about the Unipass and all~!!
  • Going to head back to Kuantan after CNY break... watch out Kuantan!! I'm coming back!! (Probably for the last time b4 fly... sob sob... I miss Kuantan!!)


~Time is passing really quick... ow mann... :(~

Thursday, January 22, 2009

What is your Deepest Fear??

Salam, just want to share this poem I once heard during form 4... which automatically left a mark in my heart... feel the meaning...

by Marianne Williamson
can be found on the film Coach Carter

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

The first time I heard this was when I was enjoying alone the DVD Coach Carter that I bought a Megamall at my house in Kuantan in form 4 during holidays (see... I remember this event clearly coz it's very meaningful!!)

Maybe some of you reading it find nothing special about this poem... but for me it really relates to me and the people around especially during schools days. The FEAR stated in this poem, the problem stated in this poem, I understand man!! It's all around me and even within me during my school days... at college I guess it's less.

Everytime I read this poem, I wanted to sent this msg to all those people in my life... wonder how they are now... those great people.. really great, much better then me, but...

Anyway for those who haven't watch Coach Carter, watch it!! It will be very meaningful espacially for those who can see themselves in the film, seriously when I watch this film.. I will be like... I feel you man!! I feel you!! There's me and my friend in that movie!!

*I almost cried (almost?) watching this movie in the scene when the brother died... damn!!

Hope some of you who never read this... who can understand the meaning behind it, can gain some sort of inspiration from it... I sure did!!

So... what's my dream that can be connected to this??

My 4th dream:
"To be someone who can made others shine!! Just like Coach Carter!!"

Possibilities: Certainly possible, InsyaAllah!!

  • Just finished one of many forms in MARA contract... so slow... arghh!!
  • Comfirm a temporary accomodation at Bro Khairul Anwar's place... Alhamdulillah~ Thanks Bro... tak sia sia gi fly high.. :)


Wednesday, January 21, 2009

A Better Future for Everyone...

Assalammualaikum wbt,

I'd like to take a moment of whoever is reading this, espacially malaysian muslims to read about this article I found on which really makes me feel.... feel.... ah just read it....


Sejak dahulu saya selalu mengkritik tentang sikap pengurusan agama, peranan zakat, kejumudan pemikiran dalam isu saudara baru. saya pernah cadangkan beberapa isu saudara baru sehingga menjadi kontraversi nasional ketika saya menjadi mufti. Antaranya; isu bin Abbdullah, isu zakat untuk muallaf agar diluaskan, isu zakat kita tidak berfungsi, isu masjid cina dan lain-lain.

Email yang seperti ini bukan kali pertama saya terima. Begitu banyak sebelum ini rintihan mereka yang baru menganut Islam yang dikemukakan. Kali ini biar laman ini menyiarkan salah satu dari rintihan mereka untuk menggambarkan mengapakah ada di kalangan mereka yang hendak keluar Islam dan kenapa bukan Islam tidak berminat dengan Islam di Malaysia.

Assalamualaikum, Dr Mohd Asri,

I am a new muslim in Malaysia but consider myself without knowledge of Islam right now.. When I got converted, the personnel in JAWI did not give me a QUR’an in English at all! Weird cause the christians provide a Bible immediately when one is converted. I was surprised but due to my love of Islam, I accepted and I was working then. So it was not a problem. But now, I am just a housewife and without the financial aid, I have had difficulties obtaining materials for studies of Islam in English language, a language i understand very well. There are classes being held by JAWI and PERKIM but I am sad to say they are more into cultural rather than Religion and they have all materials in MALAY which I don’t understand. We don’t need any traditions but we need just Islam as a religion here. And the trainers do not understand we are from different faiths. They must come down to our level, instead of expecting us to come up to their level. Its tough to explain, but only one who went through these, would understand. We should have more classes organised by Muslims who used to be from other religion and in the language of English or chosen by the student, instead of the Government choosing our language in which we should understand.

I would hope the future Malaysia includes a light for the New Muslims as in helping them in terms of education in English for Islam, The Qur’an classes and for other books, VCDs and DVDs to be produced in English for ppl like us. I wonder if there is a union of New Muslims in Malaysia to help voice out our issues. Many non-muslims are interested to know Islam, Brother. But they do not get nearer due to language limitations cause non-muslims are more into English medium of speech and readings.

I have a friend here who also converted to Islam back in 2001. Attached below is her email about her life. She suffered and still suffers I would say. And I am also worried if there is anything being done to help such people.

Brother, if Allah has called us, Allah would surely try us. But at times we find our fellow malaysian born muslims very ignorant towards people like us. When we wish them Assalamualaikum, they do not reply thinking we are not “ISLAM” . Awareness should be made for them to realise Islam is not for MALAYS only. It is for the whole nation who is lost. And the main call from Allah today is to the lost and the lost is hungry for Allah and Allah’s beautiful guidance. Praise Allah, till today we manage to persevere. The born muslims think that Allah has granted them a heaven due to their birth in muslim families. But imagine if they were in our situation, what would they do? And I need to say, we, new muslims have much knowledge about the religion than they have due to our hunger to seek Allah’s Word. And these people also must learn in ARABIC, Assalamualaikum is used by both Christians and Muslims to wish each other peace, and ALLAH is a word for GOD in Arabic used by all faiths there. I think these born muslims do not know much things, and we know much due to our searches.

I am lucky my family does not torture me. But yet, I am from a Christian background who still find it important to learn comparative religion. I found out the FCR here in Malaysia but was surprised it was charged a high fee for the classes of Intensive for 2 days. I am not sure if many can afford this, but truly, we would prefer the Govt to help subsidise these as well as provide us funds to obtain books such as Qur’an, Hadeeths, Islam DVDs, VCDs, etc. I hope someday these words will manifest.

I wonder if you’re aware that Christians in Malaysia provide absolutely free of charge, Books, Bibles, Study materials, and classes with good quality trainers in English and other languages depending on the churches or organisation. They are not funded by the Govt, yet they have the effort from donations and the church itself. I even used to get monthly magazines such as from the RBC.NET, Glad Tidings, and other international websites that send us materials free of charge. There was even a website called that sends us sermons in book format which is of good quality. I am surprised with us, being a Muslim Country could not even get near to these as of yet when we are fully helped via Zakat and the Government, being an Islamic Country. Many new muslims and non-muslims seek literature in English, but due to unavailability, they revert to their old religion. Unless they get hold onto the internet. But not all people can afford the PC and the Net to search.

I mainly wrote in for the hope that you can give light to us converts. Below is a letter from my friend who needs help.

Letter from XXXXXXXXXX (ex Sikh Religion)


I am not sure where to begin, I am not sure why but I feel that I need to talk to someone.

I converted to Islam for the second time on 10th January 2001 just a month before my marriage with my ex-husband.

The first time I converted to Islam was in 1998 when I was in UNIMAS Sarawak. Yes, at that point I had someone in my life which I very much would like to marry but the law and a regulation of the states was frustrating. I find it in Malaysia, it is so easy to get someone to convert to Islam but when they want to get married they have to face ridiculous laws. When I got married to my second husband I was told to produce 2 Islam male witnesses whom I know for 10 years. How could I know such a person when I am a convert and upmost what is my relationship with that man. Then, my parents found out that I converted and I had to stop my degree program in UNIMAS and they came to his kampong and he did not put up a fight for me. I guess it was not meant to be anyway. When I came back to Kuala Lumpur, I was forced to convert back to Sikhism; the lawyer gave me an empty sheet of paper to sign. All the necessary ceremony was done.

Eventually, I had to move on the road that they want. I found a nice Punjabi guy but when the arrangement of getting engaged was going on, they were still not happy (my family). He is lower cast and so on. Sorry to say these people never understood what I want and what I am since birth. So break off.

Then, I was determined to find a job far away and I got an offer to be the Art & Craft Organiser for the Summerset Colonial Hotel & Villas, Kuala Lumpur Pahang. There I was closed to this man who eventually became my husband (ex). Soft spoken, even time he comes and takes me out after he finishes his prayer, his face looked calm, cold and honest. I have been having dreams of converting to Islam (the pull from Islam was since childhood) and on 10th January 2001, I asked my boss for time out and he was shocked to find out that I wanted to convert. After reciting my kalimah and revert back to Islam, I was given the name XXXXXXXX by my director. I felt empty and calm.

Then I married my husband after 1 month of conversion. Since the second day of marriage he started to abuse me physically and furthermore I was receiving threats from my parents to kill me and so on. Then I called Bukit Aman they said “oh you are still alive” and then I called PERKIM they said “Oh Awak tu Punjabi memang patut kena”. Everyday I will be beaten up, my head will be banged to the iron bar of the bed I even lost my first child when he kicked me in the tummy. But Alhamdulilah I had no pain and I take this as my test. He used to follow syiriks stuffs and so on. I hanged on even the doctors told me that I can’t conceive anymore. I prayed hajat everday and today I have my son. I was named a dog and so on and kafir a lot of things. Sadly there was no family. What I longed was a family. The main argument was for money. I managed to get a divorce.

3 years after that I met a Punjabi convert and tie the knot. He showed me that he follows Islam. I am not a fanatic but I have to see this quality. After marriage he followed Sikhism, he has 3 adult son’s. He stopped working and expects me to feed him and his son and asked me to place his name under my house and car. The marriage lasted 3 ugly months. I managed to talk him out of it.

That was the history, now I stay mainly with my parents this is because they are helping me to take care of my son. I was and still am criticized for converting. My younger brother although we stay in the same house has not spoken to me for the past 8 years. His wife told me that if she conceives a baby girl she will abort the baby as she don’t want her to be like me. Now, my son is getting more matured and he his grand parents are trying to teach him Sikhism. Sometimes my dad buys chicken from Chinese shop if I try to stop him he will use vulgar words to me. I pray daily to get a good spouse that will accept my son and I and live in the environment that we should. I got to know an Indian Muslim man in Dubai through some matrimony website but again I don’t know how should I check if he is genuine, only I trust in my prayers. I just dont want to go through another painful experience as I need peace and a family of my on where I belong. I feel like an orphan in my journey as a Muslim and putting up with the locals whom I know are not defending or living under Islamic Values but defending their rights as Bumiputra. Painful when they treat us as Indian and do not address nor accept us as Muslims.

What my request are:-

Son (XXXXXXXX) is 5 years old now. Since birth his dad never seen him or given any maintenance, I have struggled and I am tired too. I was told by makamah syariah that I can put him behind bars. I know he is married again and have a child, I will not do that as the poor innocent child will loose a father and maybe his food supply. I have tried asking around for financial Aid but the way they talk to me or see me is so devastating. I am treated like an outsider. I hope to recieve some financial Aid as I know we are entitled for but its the theory of who you know not who you are, sad.

I think every converts should be given a family or have some kind of network that helps them. Because most people who officially runs converts associations and issues never sacrifice and they don’t understand the pain.

I had borrowed loans from relatives before but it just multiplies, I have settle all and I am still waiting for AKPK approval to restructure my payments.
I seek free medical facilities in government or semi government hospitals for converts that are alone, single parents.

A true husband who is a guider and provider?

I wish there was free classes and books given away, like the Buddhist does. Every weekend the children and the parents goes and learn, children will have story telling, moral and Islamic studies while parents attend the classes. I know JAWI gives classes but the timing are not of safe time as crime rates are high.

Sometimes, I feel that I am lost still alone and has not seen any promising road, please take me back to the road and the light. Thank you.

Warm Regards,


Finish reading?? First of all, I pray that these two sisters and others who are also struggling like them will always have their faith strenghten by Allah SWT and may Allah SWT opens up the heart of people around them to help them spiritually, mentally and physically.

Sometimes we read in the news about people murtad from Islam, then we started to blame that person and calling him evil and all... but maybe what we all (including me) fail to see is the problem with our society, the Malaysian muslims itself. I really can't believe one of the highest authorities in Malaysian muslim itself treat the muallaf this way, but dont blame them alone, what about the other normal everyday muslim like us? What have we done to help them? Or do we even know this group of suffering muallaf exist...

Just wanted to share an issue brought up that is related to muallaf...

Chinese Masjid- chinese muslim in Malaysia once requested that the government build a masjid that will operate using chinese languange. Response from government, "bukannya org2 cina tak pandai bahasa melayu"... well, forgive me if I'm wrong but even a normal-not-yet-fully-educated citizen like me know that there are quite a number of non-malays who don't really understand Bahasa Melayu. Even for me who can read and understand English languange find it hard to learn about Islam in English languange when I read english islamic articles at first. What more is these muallaf who has almost zero knowledge about Islam to be learning it their foreign languange, it's hard for them too.

I'm not blaming BN and asking people to support PR or anything... for me, the person or organization that disagree with setting up a chinese masjid is wrong. The chinese brothers have every rights to have one! Just one sarcastic question, if people want to set up disco using non-bahasa melayu languange i dun think the parliment will disagree, but when it comes to a very good place like masjid, why does is suddenly became an issue?

I know some will say about BM is the formal languange, and Islam is the official religion and thus Islam must use BM. This is the problem with human law.... if it was me, and I know there are brothers or sisters suffering like in the letter... I'd create a new law allowing other languange to be used in formal Islamic stuff in Msia to help them right away!!

Huh... panas panas!! haha~

Anyway, I like to thank Dr MAZA for posting a lot of mind-opening, informative and of course useful articles on his website. I recommend this website for everyone to read,, InsyaAllah you will increase your knowledge about Islam there.

Well, there are people who are anti-dr asri in Malaysia, I even met one in Fly High 09 recently, honestly, I don't understand why these people cannot cooperate togather to create a better society.

Who's Dr MAZA by the way? He is the ex-mufti Perlis, a very controversial one... :)
Some say he is very good (even received tokoh maal hijrah award) and some even go to the extend saying he brings ajaran sesat.

For me, I'm not saying he's perfect, but I'm DEFINITELY not saying he's sesat. I think he is a good ulama' that everyone should at least listen and think about his opinion espacially regarding issues in Malaysia.

The theme of his website is "Minda Tajdid" which tajdid means "to change"... In this case perhaps it means to change the situation in Malaysia, perhaps the world into a better one. A very nice theme, but unfortunately some of us in Malaysia are so resistance about changing... :( for some reason we, espacially malay muslims (including me, hopefully not anymore) think that we are so big and perfect, islamically speaking, but in reality... u be the judge~

So, what is the dream for today?

My 3rd dream:

"I dream that one day, there will be a future that is better for everyone, muslim or non-muslim alike... and that truth will took over falsehood and fitna' ...and love will defeat hatred and discrimination.

I dream of one day there will no one facing the problems and struggles like those sisters writing those letters and may Allah SWT bless all of us with the true meaning and practice of Islam"

Possibilities: Definitely if I may say so, InsyaAllah as Allah SWT has promised the believers victory.


  • Visa completed today, YEY~!! Alhamdulillah
  • MARA medical checkup finished, YEY~!! Alhamdulillah
  • Found my primary school health book... it's eaten by rats!! a big hole in it!! haha... too bad not much of a use...
That's all i guess...



Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Work Work Work and Police

Today received an email from David Boothey from UNSW... with the email comes 4 attachment, about vaccination, crime records and books. Arghhh.... so much to do~!! I thought everything settle already...

Lists to do b4 fly...
  • Vaccination ( have to go back to Kuantan bcoz I lost my vaccination card )
  • Crime records ( must go to police station to prove I'm a nice and good citizen... :) ) *if only I still have Cik Wan, Cik Lin or Cik Aa's contact number.. they are the great police officers in charge of training me during my time as Police Cadet.
  • Books!! ( Money money money... have to wait for MARA's money first... no money!! )
  • MARA Contract -haven't wrote anything yet-
  • UNSW Unipass ... still cannot create the online Unipass
  • Laptop (pon kena tunggu cukup bulan br ade duit)
  • Shopping stuff...
  • Memasak??
  • Buat kuca kat SMART!!
Hopefully can finish everything without any problems... Starting to get lazy and lazier now...

That's about Uni...

Yesterday been cycling through my old pic's and found pic's during my Police Cadet years... and also today the email came about asking me to the police to get the "Good Citizen's Proff" really brings me back to the old days.

-Ukhuwah of Brothers in Police Cadet-

-The much missed M-16 A1-

-Squad Elit forever!!-

ew thing I miss in Police Cadet that is irreplaceble:
  • Shooting M-16... oh man this is one of the best activity I've done in my life, I get to shoot real bullets using real M-16 A1 and real life target... ok... not real life target, just a dummy. The highest score I get is 89... I'm quite proud with it... bcoz its 89 even though at that time I accidently shot 2 bullets at my neighbour's target...arghh!! But at that time we won 1st place group shooting M-16... that was one the happiest time in my Police Cadet history!! wuhuu!! M-16 Champion man!!
  • Squad Elite- squad elite is a group of selected cadet from the schools in Kuantan. Like a special branch force, the best among Kuantan's Cadets.. ceh.. I miss all those camps, marching, running and of course punishment we had together. We created such a great ukhuwah in such short time. Most of us cried when our camp ended... waaaa~
  • Uniforms -as shown in the picture, the complete squad elite uniform for honourary guards of Police Cadet... (Marching together with M16 in hand) is a symbol of pride to those wearing it. The feeling of putting on that compete uniform makes me feel... wow!! Wish I could one day be wearing it again together with my friends~
  • Brothers - and I miss all my brother in Police Cadet, I met many people from all walks of life.. and I mean ALL... I pray for all of your success~ May one day we meet again, if not in this world, InsyaAllah in the heaven ~
Well... that's is for reminiscing about Police Cadet... gotta go to one of the police station soon to get the proof of good citizenship...

In accordance with this reminiscion of mine... Allow me to state one of my thousand dreams...

My dream no.2 (in this blog):
If possible, one day I wish to relive and reexperince the moment in Police Cadet at least one or maybe better all of the "Few thing I missed about Police Cadet"

Possibility of acheiving this dream:
frankly, impossible... but still, InsyaAllah~ it ain't a dream if it is not almost impossible.. :)

*the order or number of the dreams does not represent the importance of it.. just in accordance to my daily post


Time remaining:

32 Days left to flight

Monday, January 19, 2009

Hi Ho Ready Go!!

Assalammualaikum wbt~

Bismilliahhirahmannirrahim, In the name of Allah SWT...

Ok, so far I've tried twice to create my own blog, which I failed half-way due to lazyness...
So now... I'm gonna try to make this one a successfull one!! YarghhH!!

First and foremost, my brief biodata:

Name: Riman bin Ramli
B'day: 5th March 1989 / 27 Rejab 1409 <-- Isra' Mikraj day.. :) Hometown: Kuantan, Pahang, Malaysia
Hobbies: Drawing and Games
Fav. animal: GaGaK (crow)
Inspiration: Phrophet Muhammad SAW
Dreams: There's thousand of them!!
Email: (facebook,frenster,email) (YM only)

- The young GaGaK - -Same shirt, but older me-

At this date, I'm still at Malaysia, InsyaAllah.. God's willing I'll be flying to Sydney to study medicine in UNSW!! Alhamdulillah~

The flight date is on 21st February 2009 (for now)

Let's make a countdown to that date...

33 days left to flight

oh... objective of this blog?
Just a journal of a thousand dreamer!! with one ultimate dream... Heaven~

My dream no.1 :
"To achieve happiness and success in the world and afterlife~ "

Possibility: Unknown, InsyaAllah... I pray that Allah SWT place me among the true believers~

*the terms "A Thousand Dreamer" is taken from a song in One Piece... :P